Winning The Lottery?!?!

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hello future anna, nope i haven't won the lottery, but i thought it would be cool to write a list of what i would do if i actually won the lottery. imagine having all the money you would ever need, well here's what i would do...

first off, every month i would donate to a different charity. So many charities catch my eye, some are well known and others do so much work yet are struggling. i love to help and donate as much as i can, so if i won the lottery i would donate each month to someone new! i wouldn't do it for thanks or whatever, just because i genuinely do want to help.

Even though my dad would probs advise against it for future bank loans and random things (idk what he talks about because it confuses me and so do mortgages and ahhhh hahaha), i would pay mum and dad's mortgage off. This is something i think most people would do, but it's just nice isn't it.

Secondly, i would take my mum on a cruise. She has always wanted to go on a cruise, and i don't know if i would go with her, or it would be her and my dad, or her and a friend, or just her, or the whole family, i guess she could decide who was going and what was happening! I think it would be lovely to give her something she has always wanted, especially after she has done so much for me and so many others.

If i buy my mum a cruise trip, i would have to buy my dad a breitling watch. He has wanted one FOREVER and whenever we pass a watch shop, he has to have a look in the window. Again, he would probably never be able to make his mind up about what he wanted, but that's ok. He could have the money to buy whatever watch he wanted.

For my siblings, i would probably give them the money equivalent to said watch/cruise. I would advise they have a quarter to spend, and save the final three quarters for later, but of course they can do whatever they want! The only reason i say this is because my brother would spend it all on toys and games which is completely cool, but i reckon he would regret it when he is slightly older. Idk what my sister would buy. Possibly shoes, but they can decide!

Finally for my family, i would always get them great christmas and birthday presents. I do that now, but i would take it to the next level! I think i would also take them all on holiday each year to a great all expenses paid for place! It would be cool for us all to be together, and i would also invite my nephew, sister in law, grandparents, and idk whoever wanted to join! We would go to private islands, Disneyland, tropical places, theme parks! so many cool holidays, OH AND WE COULD TAKE A CHEESY PHOTO ON EACH HOLIDAY AND SEND IT AS THAT YEARS CHRISTMAS CARD LIKE THE KARDASHIANS DO!! hahaha i love that idea!

Onto me. I think I would buy an apartment in London or Edinburgh. They are my two favourite cities in the UK, and now that i have the money, i would love to make one of them my home! I would possibly buy a house, or put money aside to buy a house one day somewhere. I don't know where, but for now i would live in a city and live my best life! It would be a cool 2/3 bedroom apartment with colourful walls, a roof garden, friendly neighbors, the dream really! It would be in a great location and decorated perfectly!

Depending where i lived, i would buy a studio/film space so i could quit my jobs and pursue film making full time. I would hire people and have a cool and quirky lil film studio where we make important films that tell a story and even if no one saw them, i would be happy just spending my days creating! The dream, ay!

So after treating my family, settling down, and creating films, i would still have money left over (i hope!). I would save it/spend it wisely. I would treat myself to gigs, festivals, events, go out with my friends and travel the world! They say money can't buy you happiness, but it sure can help hahah!!

So i guess that's what i would do if i won the lottery. Probably pretty boring compared to what others would do, but i would be happy and that's the main thing. I hope i would be happy.

I know money can't buy happiness and that it isn't everything and that this probably won't ever happen, but if i keep working hard, saving up, working up the ladder, who knows... this one day could all become true! Who needs the lottery when you can work hard and really deserve what you're getting! (although it would be nice hahaha)

This blog post is paired with a video i made all about how i save money! Like i said, i am a saver, not spender, so here are 3 tips that i use! Enjoy:

What would you do if you won the lottery? I would love to know so i could maybe make my list a little more interesting hahah!! Have a lovely day future anna!

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a bottle of flat lemonade

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Good evening future anna. I haven't blogged in nearly a month. That's ok. I love blogging and writing and today at work i finished and posted 2 blogs and started another. I really love writing. I just didn't seem to have the right thing to say or if i did, i didn't really want to write it down. Last week i was in london. I started Monday morning on a hardwood floor at a friend's flat in sheffield and just a few hours later, i was on the tube on the way to meet a friend in east London. Last week was intense but i loved nearly every second. It was intense because i never seemed to just stop and take in what was happening. I say nearly because something happened that i still haven't really gotten my head round yet and i might mention it in my next mobile mind. Who knows. I sure don't. Other than that, the week was INCREDIBLE! I saw bastille in manchester, sheffield and London. I met up with some of my bestest friends and even made some new ones. I also saw dua lipa and WOW she can sing! I was still on a high when i got home. Everything was going so well. then i kinda went back to my normal self.

I. I never really know how to explain how i feel. I feel sad. But there is nothing in life for me to be sad about. I constantly want to burst into tears but i have to stop myself because someone will ask me "what's wrong?" and when i give them the correct answer of "nothing" because nothing is the matter or "i'm fine" because i am and i don't even understand why i am crying myself, they don't seem to get it. I have never been good with feelings. I seem to have all the emotions all at once and then nothing.

I often feel like this.

I describe it as being a bottle of flat lemonade. The flavor is still there, just the fizz is all gone. I also try and explain it to myself by thinking about a fire starting. If a fire magically started and i would genuinely just rather sit and let the flames take me, i know i am having a flat lemonade moment.

Wow. That sounds really awful when i take it out of my head and put it down in front of me, but it's true. I have my own little mental scale and i can either be the coolest cocktail at the party or a bottle of flat lemonade. With me, i feel there is no middle.

So that's where i am right now. A little sad but i couldn't tell you why. Not even i deserve that pleasure. I hope to write more as i love it, and if you feel like you can teach me to not be like this, don't hesitate to contact me asap as i would dearly appreciate it. Haha.

Have a nice night future anna. Hopefully you work out how to get back to being fizzy soon.

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