29/12/2020

Putting Down the Phone on 2020

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so 2020 is nearly over and it's that time again where I look over the resolutions that I set myself at the start of the year and see what happened with them...

read this post when I set them: https://annasnothere.blogspot.com/2020/01/ring-ring-its-2020.html 

get 1000 followers on instagram

this time last year, I was 10% of the way there, and now I'm nearly 30% there. when I looked at the resolutions I'd made for this year before writing this, I was shocked that this was a dream. it still is, how cool would it be to be able to reach more people, but 1000 is a majorly big number! I'm super happy that I have grown, and who knows what might happen with my socials, but no, I didn't make this one come true.

finish book 2

soooo, I didn't finish the book, but I am still working on it. the reason it's not finished is because I've started writing a tv series with my bff! it's taken a lot of my writing time, which I love, but it does mean that the world of my novel hasn't been visited for a while. I do hope to finish it, but I'm focusing on my tv/film career, rather than my author career right now!

make a ball gown

ok, so this didn't happen. I don't want to sugar coat it, but I'll give my reasons why it didn't. so, I wanted a specific fabric and colour and there is an amazing fabric shop, however due to covid, it wasn't possible to go. over lockdown, I was able to make and alter a lot of clothes with the supplies and fabric I had, but my dream ball gown wasn't possible. I was able to buy some fabric and I'm making a pretty fairy style dress, but I recently had my room redone so everything was put on hold, so hopefully I can finish it in 2021, and start the ball gown haha!

visit family and friends

LOL um ok, that couldn't happen! hahahahahahah! but seriously though, when lockdown restrictions were lifted, we were able to go on a family holiday to see other family which really was lovely. I was also able to visit my bff in Scotland TWICE which I really appreciate. Sure, I haven't seen the people and done the things we wanted to, but with the small snippets of time I have been able to, I've really cherished it. However, we have picked up the phone more, continued writing letters and video chatted weekly. It's not what we want, but actually we're all dealing with it pretty well (even if I am slightly over zoom quizzes now).

live the life I love

wow, I've really let myself down this year. nothing I wanted to do has happened haha! but I have fallen in love with life and what I'm doing with it and what I might do next with it. I cut my arm badly after getting angry near the start of the first lockdown(https://annasnothere.blogspot.com/2020/04/i-did-this-one-handed.html) and I vowed to not get angry at silly things again. it sounds stupid, but thinking back since it happened, I may have had a little cry, but I've not shouted and I've tried to keep my calm in situations. I currently have 2 part time jobs which I'm so lucky to have, especially when a lot of the world right now don't have work or have money issues. I've decided with my bff that we'll move to London next year which is so totally exciting, and my current life is pretty lovely! so I guess I'm not fully living a life a totally love yet, but I'm starting to fall in love with it and the possibilities it has on offer.

So, I may not have been able to tick everything on my list, but I think I've ticked the best one on there. I don't feel sad by it, I feel quite motivated to take the year we've had and try again next year, knowing that it's all ok whatever happens. what will you set yourself to do in 2021 future anna?

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28/12/2020

2020 Look Back

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hello future anna! it's that time again where I look over the past year and answer some questions about it! I've done this for the last few years, so it's nice to continue the trend. obviously 2020 hasn't been what we thought it would be at all. it's had it's crazy ups and downs and a lot of stuff has been changed, postponed or cancelled all together. it's not been fun, but it hasn't been bad. So, let's get into the answers...

 Was it the best year of your life?

I think that we've established that it hasn't been haha! holidays and concerts were cancelled which was sad, but I was still able to celebrate my birthday (socially distanced of course), I made a new short film all by myself, I spent some wonderful time with my family (due to the national lockdown, but we had a good time with it), and a lot more. Sure, it's not been the best, but it's not been the worst!

did you move?

nope, although my whole room was recently done up and I now have an ensuite and walk in wardrobe! so I didn't technically move, but it does feel like I have a whole new room!

did you make a lot of new friends?

I guess I've met new people by getting new jobs, but I wouldn't say they were friends as such. I think through the lockdown, I've realised that I don't have loads of friends, but the ones I have are amazing and beautiful and they care for me just as much as I care for them which is a wonderful feeling!

what's the hardest thing you went through?

this is a difficult one haha! my first thought was the lockdown, but I'm an anxious introvert, so having to stay inside is actually my dream come true. so maybe it's having to go back into the world. even when we could after the summer, I didn't want people for judging me for saying no to plans now that we could actually meet. it wasn't even the virus that scared me, it was just that I'd spent all this time inside and I'd been safe, so why would I want anything else?

did you achieve a goal?

I made a short film which was so exciting! I haven't made one of my silly "do it by myself with just some friends" for a few years, and I know I would've hated myself if I hadn't have used the lockdown time to make one or do something, so I'm pretty happy with that!

did it go by fast to you?

now I'm looking back, yes it did, totally!! but a few months ago, it was all going so slow, like time had stopped altogether. 

did your clothing style change?

no, not really, but I do push myself now to actually wear things that I've bought and were just hung up to look cute. I know what I wanna wear and dress like, and currently don't have many things like that, but I'm making the most of what I've got!

what was the dumbest trend in your opinion?

there was a tiktok trend where people would complete jigsaws and then someone else would just throw it off the table and destroy it. as an avid jigsaw lover, those videos hurt my heart, just like the people in the videos who had built them. sad times.

what's something you wish you could redo that you did this year?

maybe I would redo the lockdown. that sounds mad to some people, I know, but I think I'd use my time better, knowing what I know now and do a whole lot more! sure, I'm so happy with what I did and achieved, but it would be nice to have the blue sky days and no responsibilities again.

how many relationships did you get in?

I'm still in the one I entered with!

what's something you did that you never had before?

I tried mushroom pate and fell in LOVE!!! it's great on bread and crackers and in vol-au-vent cases! yum! I also was able to get my great grandads film camera working and took some lovely photos, I really do love film photography. I also had stitches for the first time haha! I cut my arm a few weeks into the first lockdown and had to go to hospital to be fixed! I've always wanted to go to hospital for something (not in a weird way, but my sister was there as a kid and I've seen films and ya know, I just wanted my own experience), and my wish came true haha!

was work good or bad? why?

so this year I was lucky enough to get 2 part time jobs. it's just a few hours a week but they're local and I'm so lucky to have them when so many people have been through so much with work and money this year. I don't love them and I don't hate them, I just keep telling myself that it's just for now and it's not my forever. like I said in a previous answer, it's nice to have met some new people and have a laugh with them, so that's nice.

best memory you made?

oh goodness, let me have a think. to be honest, the start of the year feels so long ago and everything feels so mushed in the middle that it's hard to remember. maybe when lockdown eased up and me and my boyfriend went to York for the weekend. the sun was out, we ate some good food, I wore a top I'd made and even though things were still not 100% normal, it was nice to have a little bit.


so those are all the questions answered! it's different from any previous year, but at the same time it wasn't all a loss. some people may read this and think I'm so bizarre for finding some happiness this year, but that's just my truth on the matter. we're going into 2021 with the virus, but hopefully this time next year, I'll be able to say we've been able to manage it and we can go and live again, although I'll still probably say no to plans haha!!

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23/12/2020

My Thoughts: Dolly Parton's Christmas On The Square!

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lol, this was meant to be posted at the start of December on a website there to help young writers. it wasn't, even though I messaged them to ask about it (they even replied and said it would be!!). I gave them the near whole of the month as the benefit of the doubt to see if they'd post but they didn't, so I'll post it on my own blog then xoxo

if they see this, hi, no bad blood I hope, but it's a Christmas film and I want my words to be shared before Christmas and seeing as you're not posting it, I'll do it! 

Anyway, here's my review for Dolly Parton's Netflix film!


I settled down with a cup of tea, ready to get into the Christmas spirit and I wasn't disappointed. Netflix's latest festive film is based on a stage play called 'Christmas on the Square’ and features 14 original songs written by Dolly Parton herself. From the start, we feel like we're watching a classic, old-fashioned seasonal movie. It's predictable, and has throwbacks to films A Christmas Carol and It's a Wonderful Life (mentions to George Bailey and Clarence are fun little Easter eggs), but doesn't every festive film? I think it's something that you'll either love or hate, but I think that's the case with all films like this, some people want to get into the spirit whilst others just don't.

 

For me, it did feel a little over the top. It felt like we were seeing a theatre set come to life, and personally, it would've had a greater effect if it was performed on stage to an audience. Being a film instead, it felt slightly cheesy, not having the full effect of really pulling us into the story and connecting to the songs. 

 

Dolly Parton, as well as writing, composing and producing, plays the angel watching over the town, specifically the character of Regina Fuller. I loved seeing Dolly as this angelic figure with a fantastic sparkly white wardrobe and motherly feel to her. After it being released that she donated a large sum of money to the Covid-19 vaccine efforts recently, she really has come to light as someone who is more than just a country singer. Doing some light research on her, she really is a fantastic woman who has no plans in stopping. She really does emit fairy godmother vibes, and I'm sure that some people will find her role slightly OTT, but you can't deny how fabulous she is. Christine Baranski plays the mean Scrooge-like character Regina incredibly well opposite Dolly. We know that she is a top singer and performer, so to see her be challenged with this mean role was a lot of fun. Of course, we can predict that her heart and mind will change, but it really struck me how well Christine plays out emotions and can fill a space with her song, especially through the few twists and u

Turns that the story offers. I'd love to see these two brilliant women together again in the future, but until then, I can enjoy them in this, although I don’t know if I can see myself re-watching the film soon.

 

Someone I'd love to mention is Selah Kimbro Jones. She plays the character of Violet, who is Tiny Tim-esque, but really brings some spark to the role. First of all, her voice stands out against the adults around her so much. When she began, I couldn't believe how talented she was, and to duet with Christine, she really is one to watch. For a film that screamed Hallmark, Selah did well to play a child who had gone through so much yet with the help of the town she was happy again. I was happily surprised with her skill as an actor, even though she was so young. To be the only main child role, it must've felt quite intimidating, especially with the cast having some real stars, but she was professional and real in her portrayal.

 

For a new film, it had a great diverse cast of performers and dancers which really bought everything to life, but there still wasn't the disability or LGBT+ people or storylines shown that we do want as a modern audience. I guess in every film there will be something lacking, and it was that in this film for me.

 

Simply, this festive film is there to raise Christmas spirits as well as look at the characters just trying to find love, understanding and forgiveness. It's simple and nothing new compared to what's already on the market, but at the same time it does have a glimmer of something different, and I think that's predominantly down to the people in it, as well as the music. I'm not saying that it'll be in the charts, but with Dolly Parton being a major part of it, who knows what may happen.


So, it's been a few weeks since I've watched the film and I think the only people I know who have seen the film is me and my family lol! sorry Dolly, we still love ya!


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12/12/2020

My Thoughts: Taylor Swift's Album 'evermore'

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IT’S TIME TO LISTEN TO MISS TAYLOR SWIFT’S NINTH STUDIO ALBUM! A random announcement a few days ago told us that we could expect a new album so much sooner than anyone ever expected. To celebrate her 31st birthday, Taylor has given us her next child, the sister to her previous album folklore (which you can read my thoughts on here: https://annasnothere.blogspot.com/2020/07/my-thoughts-taylor-swifts-album-folklore.html). She wanted to carry on writing, so we will carry on listening. 

 

I always write my reviews like this, where I listen to each song and give my thoughts as we go through the album, so it may work best if you already know the music or if you want to listen along as you read! So, here we go, let’s listen to evermore!



willow

 

Oh ok this is so different from folklore. I love how beautiful the lyrics are and the way the song flows like wind passing by a willow tree. We used to have a willow tree in a garden in a house that we used to live in and I loved it and it’s so sad I can’t sit under the willow trees and appreciate this haha! “I come back stronger than a ‘90s trend” I just adore how taylor writes, how each album shows us her getting stronger and stronger in her talents. This song really is beautiful in how someone is just wanting their love to take their hand and drag them along for the ride, and I think a willow tree is the perfect imagery for this. ALSO, let's just take a moment for the music video because I've been watching Dickinson on Apple TV and the vibes were like it and it was gorgeous going along with this story continuation! love love love!

 

champagne problems

 

NEW YEARS DAY VIBESSSS. Ok, so the other love of my life is Katy Perry and in her most recent album, she has a song called Champagne Problems so I was hyped to see that Taylor had one of the same title because you never know, we might get a collab one day! But this one is so sad and the complete opposite to Katy’s. So someone has been proposed to, but the girl has said no. It’s beautiful and touching, yet heartbreaking. In TV shows, we see things like this happening and we often gang up against one of the characters, but it’s interesting to learn about proposals and how they are kinda final, and that it’s ok to not want that. It’s obviously sad, but it shouldn’t always be a bad thing. It’s ok to have feelings. “She would’ve made such a lovely bride, what a shame she’s fucked in the head” I hate how this girl has to make everyone else happy and ignore her own feelings, so good for her! I really love this one. AND THE BRIDGE OMG

 

gold rush

 

Looking back and using history as a metaphor, this song kind of echoes songs from Lover where Taylor worries that her love will leave for someone else. I love how we no longer know if songs are about her life or made-up people, it really adds mystery but also allows us to connect to the songs more in my opinion as they’re not just hers. I really love how the verses somehow sound so different from the choruses. “My mind turns your life into folklore” throwback to folklore! I just love the idea of stories being passed down and these two albums totally embody that, this song confirming it.

 

‘tis the damn season


This one sounds really different to the others. This feels like a follow up to Illicit Affairs from the folklore album. I adore that song, and a lot of the lines in this seem to mirror ones in that. It’s like the woman in the affair seems to have fallen in love and wants more and is seeing what’s happening as a true relationship, so suddenly they’re not the ones cheating. It’s beautiful and straightforward, yet strange and hard to understand. I love how it talks about going home, but home could also be the person being sung to.

 

tolerate it

 

This song is lovely. It tells the story of someone wanting love from someone who isn’t really paying attention to anything they do for them. It’s so sad. The character singing is doing so much, and the line “you’re so much older and wiser” makes me think that it’s a young person with an older person, trying to impress them and keep the excitement going but it’s not working. I love how the lyrics pull this story together in such a beautiful way, and the fact that it ends in the same way it begins just shows us the circle this couple will keep going round until one of them decides to pull out. SO CLEVER! Normally, Taylor’s track 5 on each album is the big ballad about love, and I was not disappointed with this.

 

no body, no crime ft Haim

 

I frickin love Haim, so let’s go!! OMG ESTE has she killed someone nooooooo omg. Ok good, sweet bass face Este is fine, it’s the man. Cool. OMG NO IS ESTE DEAD? I just love how it’s written like some gossiping wives chatting. OMG VERSE 3!!! Damn this is it THIS IS IT!!! Go that friend going off and killing, but their ain’t no body, so she didn’t do it, she can’t have, she was with Este’s sister. I am shook. This is it; this is my favourite so far!


I'm just listening to it again and I have literal chills, "he did it" oh my goddddd yes!!!!!

 

happiness

 

This is so different compared to the previous tune haha, I love how it’s hopeful and special in a way of understanding that happiness will come after bad, but there can be happiness in the bad too. Taylor has only gone and done it again, write something so beautiful. The bridge is next level, playing on teenage games and accepting how we all have good and bad in us, and it’s ok if things don’t work as long as we remember that they once did. This song is delicate, and I adore it. It’s simple yet mind blowing in its execution. There is happiness.

 

dorothea

 

This sounds like old Taylor!!! Dorothea is referred to as the girl who left her small town to chase down Hollywood dreams by Taylor. It makes me think of ‘Hey There Delilah’ by the Plain White T’s, how love will always continue even if someone goes away and becomes someone else. It also makes me think of Taylor’s song ‘Lucky One’ seeing how famous people are just people who have come from somewhere, and we always wonder if they’re still that person. I just really love this one and the perspective of the story, and of cause all the ooh-woohs hahah!

 

coney island ft The National

 

I’ve never been to Coney Island, let alone Brooklyn or New York, but it’s often used in songs, most notably for me by Lana Del Rey, calling herself a “Coney Island Queen”. It’s nice to see it in this light, as someone thinking about the happiness there, but obviously that juxtaposing against the truth of the situation. All of the arcade references are sweet, showing us how relationships feel the need to win big bears to prove their love, when just communication and acceptance is needed. OMG NO IS THE GUY DEAD??? I adore this one and I need to know what it all means!!!!! It feels like the person is so loved yet is being forgotten, and they both regret it yet there’s nothing to be done.

 

ivy

 

The beginning of an affair grows like ivy in this song, you’re welcome for that pun! I love the metaphors used to write it, and it makes me wonder if it’s the prequel to Illicit Affairs from folklore. This sounds so beautiful; with the country aspects I really have fallen in love with it. Onto the bridge and the affair seems to have been discovered. I love the use of “you started it”, suggesting it as a joke in how the love for you started all of this, but maybe the person has come clean about the affair and due to them, a true war has begun in their lives. 

 

cowboy like me

 

We’ve got even more country here, from the sound to the cowboy imagery. Two people are falling in love when they don’t think they should be. It makes me think of Getaway Car from Taylor’s album Reputation, two people on the run, bandits, yet here it’s more metaphorical in how they see each other and the world. It’s kind of like a ride or die situation, yet neither is that invested to fully be a ride or die with each other. “but that was all before I locked it down” it’s interesting to see these people slowly leaving their cowboy-esque lives to understand and love each other fully. “I’m never gonna love again” so do they end up together? Or have they loved too deep that they’ll never find anyone like it? Or are they together and together is all they’ll ever know? I hope they’re ok. 

 

long story short

 

Ooh I love the feel of this one. Apparently, this song is a quick overview of the public feud Taylor had with Kanye in 2016. I love how it feels like something on a previous album with its more pop-y elements yet fits in perfectly with this. It’s such a shame to know how badly this all-affected Taylor as there are so many songs and moments where she mentions it or uses it as inspiration. “now I just keep you warm” it’s like Taylor knows that she bought Kanye fame and money through what happened and she’s lined their pockets slightly through it, so yeah, she’s paid for their heating, they’re welcome haha! I love the last line, yes take that survival and own it!!!!

 

marjorie

 

It’s track 13 and it’s dedicated to her grandmother which is lovely because track 13 on folklore is dedicated to her grandfather. I think this song is so lovely for people who have lost loved ones, in coming to terms with what’s taken place but at the same time how we don’t have to just forget and move on, those people do live on in ways. It’s kind of like her grandmother is speaking to her, telling her things to do and understand in life, and now she’s gone, Taylor won’t forget what she was told. The bridge really is special, in understanding how time is precious, but we often don’t understand. It makes me want to continue writing letters to my family and friends, really appreciating each moment, whether big or small. I think epiphany is such a special song, but I love this one a whole lot more because I can relate to it in a way that I can’t with the other.

 

closure

 

Um hello, is this Taylor swift? It’s like folk has gone industrial, slightly rock in the deep depths. The narrator talks about an ex who can’t understand why she’s still mad at him. Like, you have no control over your emotions or other people’s so stay out of it dude! I think forgiveness is important and needed, but it should also be allowed to not accept or forgive if someone is truly hurt by what’s happened. Of course, it doesn’t help blah blah, but you can’t control or understand what someone else is going through, so leave them be. This song isn’t what I thought it would be, but I really like it.

 

evermore ft Bon Iver

 

Like her collab with Bon Iver on folklore, we are given a piano ballad, nicely the album’s namesake to round it all off. It’s so sad to hear her sing about sadness and pain, knowing that it can’t always be goodness. The relationship and life is unhappy, and they will always be reminded of that which is a heart-breaking shame. The layers of Justin Vernon’s verse are truly gorgeous, and when they come together, wow, they really work together wonderfully and I’m so glad we now have this and Exile as collaborations between them. From thinking the pain would last evermore, it’s lovely to hear the growth, knowing that it won’t last for evermore. I think this song perfectly captures the journey of this album, experiencing pain, loss, great highs and happiness. We often can only focus on the bad, but this lets us know that there will always be good.

 

Ok, How You Get The Girl from 1989 has just started playing, love that for me!!!

 

So that’s Taylor’s 9th album evermore. There are two bonus tracks but they aren’t out yet unless you have a physically copy and I don’t so I can’t talk about them, but the bonus track on folklore, the lakes, IS AMAZING, so I’m sure that I’ll love these ones too!

 

It really was a beautiful album, different from folklore, yet a mirrored image in the way stories have progressed or changed. I just love these Taylor eras so much and think that they truly show off her writing abilities in ways that her albums haven’t done before. It’s poetry that I can sing really loudly in my car, so I love it!

 

If you don’t have time to listen to the full album, my recommendations are: willow, champagne problems, no body no crime, dorothea and marjorie. I love them all as you can tell but if I had to cut it down, after my first listen those are the ones I love most! Omg long story short and closure though are *chefs kiss*!!!! Damn they all are!!!!

 

So, those are my thoughts after my first listen to evermore. I can’t believe we have been given two Taylor Swift albums in the space of just a few months, but I’m here for it! I love you Taylor!!!

 

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09/11/2020

'Three Sacks Full of Hats' Film Review

A story of destruction and emotional confinement, this film introduces us to Mick, a thirty-something man who has tried to escape his family environment by moving to London. After a long absence, he now goes back to his hometown to see his dying brother who has suffered years of alcohol abuse. 

Written by BAFTA-winner screenwriter Geoff Thompson, we see beautiful seaside blue landscapes, but then are transported to a dirty flat where a worried mother knows her son may not come back. This short looked at family life and alcoholism in a real and touching way, giving the audience a true insight as well as raising awareness for the issues talked about. Written so powerfully by Thompson, and directed by Debbie Anzalone, this film pushes away over dramatic and scary storylines, to instead present the world with something that a lot of people go through or know someone who has. It was delicate and simple, made in a way that will stay with the viewer and keep them thinking.


 

With an all-star cast, the performances really are wonderful. The picture painted puts us into this family’s world for a short while, even if it is devastating to see. Warren Brown plays Mick, doing a lovely job at keeping his cool, trying not to get angry at the choices that the people around him have made. I think this film shows shame and denial in a way that doesn’t make us as an audience get angry towards a character yet understand where they are coming from in their approach, as is in real life. I think the performances, especially Brown’s, were able to let us see many sides to a story without feeling the need to pick, only to learn and understand.

 

With closeups and a handheld style, everything felt like we were there also, a part of the family. I loved how crisp the picture looked, compared to the slightly muted colours to make everything feel quite sad, it looked how I as an audience member felt towards the story. For me, the most powerful section of the film was the final scene in the pub, really juxtaposing the rest of the films colour and style, offering around alcohol in a warm, friendly space.

 

I think that topics like alcohol and addiction can be tough to write about, but I think that this depiction was accurate and truthful in its approach. It wasn’t too over the top, it wasn’t too sad. It felt right, leaving me thinking about awareness that needs to be raised, but also about the families that go through all of this and are often left behind. We need to also think of them and how they can live their lives with a hole which might be left. I really do recommend giving this short a watch, away from the crazy crime dramas, and instead for the importance of it.



This film is having its online premiere on Omeleto around Alcohol Awareness Week. Get help/learn more about it here: https://alcoholchange.org.uk/get-involved/campaigns/alcohol-awareness-week-1

03/11/2020

Erica Lee Martin's Album: Dreams

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hello! I was asked to listen to Erica Lee Martin's new album, and watch the visuals. After speaking with her, I was really intrigued by it all, especially after hearing that it came together over lockdown. I'll do my normal review thing, where I'll listen to each song but as they're accompanied by visuals also, I'' give my thoughts on those too.


Sense Memories

I really love the beat and feel of this song. The spoken word, accompanied by the drums makes me feel uncomfortable but at the same time I'm pulled into what's being said and need to know more. The visuals are dreamy and simple, yet important in showing the meaning behind each word. I love how the whole song builds, leaving us swaying around the story that's told unsure of the climax but also never wanting it to end. From not knowing what to expect from Erica, I'm sweetly surprised by this first track, the choice of spoken word and how she has bought it all to life.


Dreams

The changing of colours gives us the sense of a party, or happiness, or even leading us down a path of feeling unsure or scared of the ever moving darkness and what's in it. Being the title track of the album, this song really seems magical and full of beauty, yet the lyrics leave us feeling a melancholy type of emotion, wanting us to be in Erica's place but at the same time far from it. The movement in the visuals really heightens the dream we're in and what's being sung about which I really like. This whole package really is powerful. Allison Elizabeth Burns plays the dancer in this video and I really love her work, how things start slow but then become too much, needing to overlap each other, making things feel like a dream, or even a nightmare.


The Patio

Red can show love, but also danger. I really love how this song uses the colour red in its visuals to show a bright time in someone's life full of love and wine, but also how it was a time of mistakes and hate. I love how random moments of speech are thrown in to make it feel like the song is a conversation, with a friend or foe weighing in their thoughts every now and then. Half way through the song, we are greeted with a cool techno beat, showing how things have been understood but lessons haven't been learnt, I think it's clever in using the song and visuals to show this. The character in the video does a great job in animating every word and emotion that they're going through. 


Jove

Made up of storyboards by Jes Martin, this song is accompanied by visuals set up in the stars. This works really well with the song having effects that make it feel like we're in a spaceship, floating around the galaxy. I love this style of music and how effects have been used, but it isn't over the top and crazy. It really works in sounding like we're not on Earth, but away with the story of the song. Again, we have some speech in there which I like, showing us how Erica's style really is unique in how she creates soundscapes and words to pair with that, taking us somewhere new.


Who You Are

I really like where this song has come from, looking at how we're never as tired or lonely or hungry as someone else, so surely our feelings don't matter. To match this with interesting visuals, making the character feel small, or just like another part of the furniture, was a really cool choice and one that I think works really well. It felt clean and stripped back, letting the song do the talking. I liked the vocal choices for this track, really relying on Erica's voice and not the techno style beats or bright visuals. I think this is the song that I have felt the most connected to so far.


The Party

The poetry of this song really is special. Looking at how parties full of people and noise can actually be one of the most lonely places is something that is looked at, but not in this way. I love how it really focuses on certain people in the room, putting our feelings down to their behaviour rather than our own troubles, which is something that we all can do in social situations. I liked how the camera put the main character in a box the whole time, making her feel trapped and away from the fun, really keeping everything in this track full circle, and something that anyone could relate to.


Take My Picture

I love how fun this song is, making us feel like we're on holiday somewhere, especially with the visuals adding to this. The lyrics really stand out for me on this track, with how exciting and bubbly they are. Juxtaposing this with the video, the people in it are trying to be something they're not stood against a green screen, showing how our world thrives on vanity and photography, turning ourselves into something we're not just for the sake of likes. I think this has to be one of my favourites because of the sound, it's just a lot of fun, yet truth in one bite.


Man of My Dreams

We can often mistake hate for love if we're blinded by movie like magic, and this song really is clever in playing with that trope. Making the visual that accompanies it feel like a fairytale is a fabulous choice, in really exploring how we can think certain things just because films and the media drills it into us from a young age. Even exploring fairytales, they all have such dark meanings that we just gloss over when telling them, but really the true meaning brings us a greater moral that we should be learning about. I love how Erica hasn't held back in her story telling, both through the visuals and song for this one.


That Night

I love the feel of this video, transporting us back in time to seeing Top of the Pops, yet keeping it modern with the styles and sound. I really liked the vibes and felt like I this girl grouper were real, I'd want to see them live to create this magic that is made. I think keeping things simple really made this video stand out, and enhanced the lyrics so that we could really focus on them and how important they are.


Opaque

This track is really sweet and sounds simple yet the lyrics remind us how Erica is far from that in her songwriting abilities. I think this song really shows off her voice and how talented she is in singing her stories. I would've loved for it to have been longer, but sometimes it's better to keep things how they are rather than force out something and for it to be ruined. Accompanying this song are visuals of someone just going about their day to day life, whether that's waiting for an interview, getting over a breakup, or something else, reminding us that we all have lives to lead and we shouldn't judge or assume someone else's.


Everything's Fine

Oh this song feels so glamorous compared to the previous. Filmed in black and white, things feel sophisticated and elegant, really making everything feel put together and perfect even though the songs she's written showing elements of her past are crumbling around her. To end on this track really is a power move, saying how things are alright. We don't know if she's lying or if things actually are fine, but it's nice to end on a positive note compared to the heartbreak and fear that the other songs portray. A deep breath and we're done, showing how we can get through the bad, even if it doesn't always feel like it.

People go through a lot, but to write it down, sing about it and show the world in an intimate way can be difficult, but I really love how Erica has dived straight in and not held back any of her truth. Things don't always go how we want them to, but to know that this album was about her past and writing it helped her get out of it, we can see how art can be used to heal. As well as that, listening to and appreciating art can help others who are dealing with similar things which I think is so powerful. 

I really loved this album and the visuals that went along with it. It made me feel nostalgic, Erica's voice really feeling warm and comfortable to listen to. My favourites are: Dreams, The Patio, Who You Are, Take My Picture and Everything's Fine.


So those were my thoughts on Erica Lee Martin's album Dreams. I really recommend watching the visuals to really help paint the pictures of each story, just giving us a more in-depth look into this piece of art.

You can watch/listen to the album here: http://smarturl.it/dreams-album

Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoy Erica's art!

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29/10/2020

GraceLand Short Film Review!

GraceLand, the home of Presley, and now a new short film, follows the life of a 10 year old girl who believes she is the reincarnation of Elvis.

I think this story is an absolutely brilliant idea. We grow up wanting to be princesses, or even superman as the dad in the film suggests, but why just be a rockstar when you can be the king himself. I've never seen anything like this film. Obviously I've seen films that look at similar topics, but this short approaches this idea in such a new and fun way, really leaving me smiling and singing.

Bright in colour and soul, Katie Beth West takes centre stage in playing mini Elvis and does the most incredible job. Whether this story is a metaphor for children growing up and changing through phases, understanding who they want to be in the world, or not, West does amazingly well to keep us hooked on her story. Through new hair and facial expressions, you can tell that Elvis was the homework for her and I have to give her an A+ for her work, it really is so much fun to see someone so young bring someone so important to life.

This cast really is stellar, having Monique Coleman play an understanding and supportive teacher so lovingly. Grace/Elvis's mum is played by Anna Camp, who I really love in this motherly role. She acts like I think most parents would in a situation like this, but nice to slightly contrast her with Daniel Eric Gold who plays the dad and a more understanding figure at first. They really work well to create a married couple, trying hard to love their daughter and her choices, or his. I think creating such well rounded characters can be difficult, but film writers Trevor Munson and Bonnie Discepolo really show how they can pull it all together. 

Image by Alex Harris

This script really is brilliant, throwing in Elvis lingo yet keeping it fresh and not too over the top. I really loved the way the story played out, keeping us out of the loop on Grace's side, like the parents, but then slowly allowing us to see and choose for ourselves. Also directed by Discepolo, she says that "GraceLand is a fairytale, a guide to how I wish the world was". It can be so difficult to tell the world who you are, especially your parents, but even more so if that includes gender and sexuality. We live in a world that's so much more accepting than what it was, but not everyone is. I love how GraceLand tackles this in a comedic way, yet truthfully. It understands how parents can be confused or unsure, but how they can learn and love. It is a fairytale, but I hope that for the people who need it, it one day becomes a reality. And that they get a handmade glittery stage costume if they wish. I want one.

This really is one to watch. With a crew of amazing talent, all pulling together to make something memorable and so important. I really did enjoy this, and I'm excited for its future. As Elvis said, “You’ve got to follow that dream, wherever that dream may lead.” and I think this beautiful film is an amazing reminder that we do have to follow our dreams and live our lives. Things may not always work out our way, but staying true to ourselves is the most important thing.

26/10/2020

Women X Festival 2020 Film Reviews!

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hello there! how's it going? This weekend I am sitting back and enjoying a new festival which really excites me. It's all about sharing short films made by and/or staring women or non-binary people! I love that idea, and thought I'd jot down my thoughts on all the short films I watch! So let's go!

There are 5 short film categories and a special screening, so I will separate this post into those sections so that you can hopefully easily find the film you're looking for!

Redefining Belonging: Despite preconceived notions, this beautiful selection shows us the countless ways we can find kinship.

A Midwife's Oath

Seeing documentaries at film festivals is one of my favourite parts, because often these documentaries and topics are so important, but don' get the exposure they need. Learning about the war, and knowing that babies will continue to be born is one thing, but being able to meet the women who are there for those about to give birth really is special.

Midwives take an oath to care for the women who will come in, no matter their religion, skin colour, the language they speak, anything. Lauren Anders Brown, the director, and editor of this piece has really thrown us into a place that we need to learn and know about. With closeup and fast moving visuals, we can begin to imagine what day to day life is like for these heroes, giving up their lives to help bring new ones into the world. 

The film felt very peaceful, focusing on the good and positive side of childbirth which I appreciated seeing, even though it was juxtaposed with what the women were saying about war, hunger and other issues.

I think this is a brilliant documentary that really opens your eyes to the world outside of what we know, and something that I will recommend to friends to see to help them also learn and be aware of.


Dispel

This was such an interesting look at addiction and how children can be affected, but also how they feel that they can help. To set it with a love of sci-fi and dreams really was great, helping us see more into the world of Lizzie and how she was using the things around her to help her cope.

I'm a big Doctor Who fan, and watching this really did make me think about fictional heroes that we have and how the stories we see or read can be inspirational to us. The Doctor is an advocate for good, just like Celeste Skygoode in this. To see the crossover of worlds really did ensile a magic in me, and the knowledge that if we believe, we can achieve and win just like our heroes do.

The special effects and editing in this were fantastic, leading us to believe in this fantasy, and to thank for that is a great team of people. Standing out for me though is Chelsea Hernandez who worked on the SFX makeup, which really did bring the monster to life. From the visuals to the music, Dispel really created a world within the one we live in where monsters exist but can also be defeated.

Written and directed by Kylie Eaton, I think this short film has done really well to capture the audience but also tell an often difficult story with the respect and love it deserves. For the festival, is has been nominated for an award in quite a few categories, so I'm definitely not on my own with my thoughts on this one.


Ilana Dances

This is such a special insight into the world of a single mother of 3 who is also a pole dancer. The film began and I didn't know what to expect, but as we continued, I realised that it was a documentary, really allowing us to be intimate with this family and who they are.

Pole dancing is something that has always appealed to me, and I'd love to try it one day, as it just seems so beautiful, but could also maybe help me get some muscles haha! To see a mother so happy and open about what she does was fantastic, as pole dancing and the other jobs around it can be seen by people in many different lights. But at the end of the day, what's wrong with it? And if it's a job that you love and helps to support your family, why is there a problem? 

I loved how we learnt from the people on our screen in different ways, through classic talking to the camera, but also un simple ways by just watching their day to day routine. To hear Ilana's daughter talk about her job rather than Ilana herself was refreshing, but also so heartwarming to know that her whole family loved her and what she did and found nothing weird about it at all.

Nominated for the Best Documentary award at the festival, I can really see why with its beautiful, simple storytelling, but also important message that every job and person matters and that's what we should be teaching.


Malinchista

Next up we have a powerful animated short that challenges the words used by generations. We can often assume or not be bothered to learn, and in this case, that can be used to an advantage. I really liked this story, it made me worried at first, but as we discovered the true story and meaning of a word, it really showed how powerful we can be.

I loved the 2D animation style, using colour and movement to emphasise the words and chaos of history. Malinchista isn't a word I've heard before, but after seeing this and also doing some research, it really is interesting how our past can be passed down like a game of Chinese Whispers and change along the way. I like how film festivals allow us to see new, fresh ideas that we wouldn't have seen without them, and this is one that I am so glad to have learnt about and begun to understand.

I love how director Flora Rees-Arredondo wants people to reclaim this Spanish slur and empower Latinx women. A wonderful pick for this specific festival.


Ukde

This short film really tugged at my heart strings. Looking at the life of a woman and a child who is randomly thrown into her home, we really went on a journey with these characters, learning about the world we're in, but also ourselves.

Looking into heavy topics like war and child trafficking, Ukde really shines a light on countries where sadly, these are normal things. There is nothing in place to support the people left behind, even if it is children. 

The acting in this short was superb. It all felt so natural and real, pulling us into the lives of the characters and letting us have our mix of feelings about them and our actions. This film is up for a few awards, including best acting, but also production design. I really loved the look of this film, the location and everything in between. I think this one stands tall in the categories it's nominated in, well deserved as we can really see.

I think like all of the films in this category, they all look at things that we need to educate ourselves on and be more aware of. Something like this may seem like a work of fiction to some, but to others, it's the reality of what's going on in certain places, whether we like that or not. There is so much work to be done, and to see this short really is inspiring to push harder, and work more at educating ourselves and helping out however we can.

Still from Ilana Dances


Unconventional Connections: From the hilarious to the heartwarming, these films illustrate the extraordinary ways in which we connect with others.

50 Shades

Sarah Hayton, writer and director, has done so well with this short comedy. We go into the salon with Jane, but are met with a scary Cheryl, who makes us think that Jane won't leave the hairdressers alive. I really liked this fun, twisted short as I love stories like this that use the unexpected to keep us on the edge of our seats.

Sometimes simple is the most effective, and in this case I completely agree. In under 2 minutes, our emotions are batted around as we hope and pray that no one on our screen gets hurt. This really was clever and I really want to watch it again.


Antonio

Set in 1970s Scotland, this film uses simple camera work and styles to transport us back in time. An Italian family moves in, leaving the parents struggling to fit in, but pushing their son to make friends through his love of football. This short made me think of the 1982 film P'tang Yang Kipperbang, using sports narration to make it feel like dreams were coming true whilst playing.

I've mentioned the look of the film, but it really was fantastic. In a lot of modern films, you can tell that it's new but with a filter or a few things thrown on top, but this short really did go above and beyond to set it's place and keep us hooked there. Nominated for quite a few awards, this film really does a beautiful job in showing the truth behind people moving to a new place. Back in the 70s it was tough, but have things really changed? I love that story arch a lot and appreciate time being spent on it.

I think the performances were authentic, sticking to the time period but also reaching out to a modern day audience and how we react to change or something new. I really can see this turning into a feature film, a bit like P'tang Yang Kipperbang, but instead of focusing on comedy and cricket, it looks at the lives of people who move countries and the worlds love of football.


Fred Forever

I gasped out loud at the end of this one! Oh my word, I think this has to be one of my favourites so far. The comedy and timing was genius, and the acting matched that perfectly. 

This story concept was so different, it's not like anything I've seen before, yet it had all the classic comedy components that really made it work. Along with the music and filming style, the 2 main cast members did brilliantly in making this story one to remember. A special shout out though to Phil Dunster who makes a cheeky cameo and if you've listened to the podcast I'm on, you'll know that we love him from being on the Cineworld adverts!

Written by Bethan Culliane and directed by Ellie Heydon and Lydia Bland, this female powered story really is a clever one, and like I said, one that really had me hooked and shocked me at the end. I think comedy shorts can often be hit or miss, but this one really did hit the nail on the head. One I'll definitely remember!


Love Spell

Set in the gritty yet pink glow of the 90s, Love Spell looks at a friendship but how one of the pair want more. Written and directed by Lauren Vevers, the story shows us how friendships can turn into desire and love, but for 2 people of the same gender, whether in the 90s or now, it can be hard to tell the truth about it. 

The actors who play Amber and Demi really help us get lost in this world of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and blue eyeshadow, helping us to see what may or may not have been accepted by people at the time. I liked how the film centred around the school disco, as most romcom films do, but I appreciated how this one used it as a background activity, rather than the be all or end all like in most American teen films. This gave it a different vibe that I could begin to fall in love with as the characters started to understand themselves more.

Nominated for a few awards, I really enjoyed this watch, and even though it didn't feel like anything particularly new, the way it was told was. I really hope that it does well.


Roundheads and Cavaliers

Taking us back in time, but then back to a field in present day, we have this comical short! Alice is invited to try historical reenactment for the first time but finds herself caught between a Roundhead and a Cavalier in a fight for her love. I really liked this idea. It felt classic, but it was executed (no pun intended) incredibly well. 

Nominated for Best Comedy, the script, written by Kevin Mears, really shines as a look into the lives of people who do this sort of thing at the weekend. But it was also great to see an outside perspective, something that I think most watchers will appreciate. For me, I think that either Cariad Lloyd or Alex Carter could've been nominated for the best actor award as I really believed their performances. Often short films don't give people time to really dive into their characters, but this film just felt so natural. 

Directed by Chloe Thomas, I think it's really interesting to see a female perspective on historical events like this. Often women aren't involved, or they play wenches, and aren't up close with the fake action. But I'm so glad that this film didn't really give people names or roles or stop people from getting involved due to their gender. I really did enjoy this short, and it's the kind of thing that I can imagine being a TV series.


The Turtles

Written and directed by Maya Witters, this cute little comedy sees a woman wanting out a relationship, but her love for turtles may help her start another. To be honest, with this title, I didn't know what to expect from this film, but I was pleasantly surprised. 

In primary school, we had a class pet who was a tortoise called Charli and it was always so cool to be picked to feed or care for them, so I completely understand the fascination with them in this film. I think to have them be the familiar face whilst the world was changing was a really sweet idea. 

For me, this film didn't feel natural at points, but I did enjoy the acting and the overall story, looking into the life of someone questioning their current relationship as well as their sexuality. I like the idea of this short, and think that it will leave anyone watching it in the same mood.

Promo image for Love Spell


Striking Perspectives: See the world through fresh, unique lenses in these enlightening and distinctive shorts.

Alice

Based on Noel Coward's poem 'Alice Is At It Again', we see the world of a young girl as she yearns for more than her bedroom offers. I've never read the poem, or heard of it for that matter, but to be pushed into this world really was a spectacle that I truly enjoyed. From here to there and everywhere in-between, we don't know what's true or false, or if we really know who the character of Alice is. 

Directed by Laura Scrivano, this incredibly beautiful forest space calls out to us, just as it does to the character it wants. It was amazing to see the height and beauty of this wooded space as something delicate and bright, and not dark and creepy as most films suggest. To then juxtapose this with the house where Alice has to stay was again amazing, suggesting that a dark story isn't scary, but bright and welcoming.

Sarah Snook stars in and narrates the film. I think her voice and playfulness are perfect for this role, really feeding this fairytale and pulling us into the world. I'm now so intrigued but this poem that I want to read it and learn more. I'm really surprised that this short film has only been nominated for 1 award, but I hope it does well.


Falafel Sundays

Wow, I have just seen this and wow, I loved it. This is the 2nd animated film that I have seen for this festival, and I have loved them both. I am always in so much awe of people who can bring art to life in this way, no matter how simple or in-depth.

I loved how it was short and snappy, getting straight to the point but then travelling far from it, making us think about even the silly moments and forgettable times we have in life. We have these connections, whether a lot or a little, and whether we choose to dwell on them or not, the world will continue spinning and changing. I loved how simple this short was, but at the same time so clever and deep.

Made by a small team, it's lovely to see how much work has been put in from the writing of the story to the composing of the music. For me, this is how you do it. No big fuss or stress, just simple but something that we can all understand or relate to. I also love falafel so that helps.


Full English

I was so happily surprised with this short! Focusing on loneliness, mental health and framing that on the dying trade of English coastal towns was an amazing idea. 

Caroline Wildi, staring in the film, has been nominated for the best performance award and I'm so glad because this really was an incredible watch. It felt like a horror, but with its colour and charm, it took us away from that place and left us as confused as the customers and even the owner of the hotel. Written by Emily Carlton, I thought this monologue style piece really came together well, and it was the perfect way of putting the story across in my opinion. The repetition and changing of tones worked tremendously to show the shakiness of the woman we were following, and to show a glimpse of what she was dealing with.

I've mentioned the colours, but the look of this short really caught my attention. Kind of like a Wes Anderson film with a certain colour palette and filming style, it really made a name for itself and knew what it was. This film really stands out to me in the festival, I'm so glad that I've been able to see it!


Not for money, Not for love, Not for nothing

I scrolled down to this film and was super intrigued by the title, but then as I pressed play, I began to realise that this was going to be a serious film to really get into. Looking at sex workers and their experiences, it was fantastic to have another documentary in the festival. Diving into topics like this can be difficult, but the way that it was done, really giving control to the women who told their stories rather than creating an intricate narrative was the perfect way to bring this idea to life. 

Using animation for anonymity was so clever, and the animation and colours used, in my opinion, were perfect in helping to tell the story but in a way that didn't seem too dark and scary. It allowed the women to be people, for us to see them in a fair light, rather than pushing us to assume the worst. Animated by Ola Szmida, I really loved this whimsical feeling style paired with the words of the women, and I think it worked really well.

This short really was engaging in giving a fantastic insight into the lives of the people it featured. More needs to be taught about sex work and all that it entails, the good and the bad. Hopefully something like this can be picked up and shown around as it really is needed.


The Plant Collector

I really love the idea of this film. A woman collects plants that are owned by murderers and bad people to kind of protect them from the evil I guess. I've never seen anything like it and to keep it short and simple was a fabulous idea.

Using an old camcorder to film on, it made me think that this film could be set anytime over the last 30 years maybe which I liked. It added to the mystery of the women that it focused on as well as the mystery of the murderers and who they were. Written, directed and produced by Kathryn MacCorgarry Gray, this mockumentary puts us in the strange position of being interested by the woman shown, but also scared by her. Does this character have similar characteristics to the people she steals plants from? 

I just really think that this idea was fresh and different, really pushing me to want more than just a 5 minute film, but I guess that's the point of it, to leave us wanting more!


The Story Of All Of Us Women

Wow, this film nearly made me cry. To know that in certain places women aren't allowed abortions is one thing, but to learn that they can go to prison if their baby sadly doesn't make it, even if it's natural and abortion wasn't even thought about. Again, another powerful documentary presented by this festival that really is something the world needs to be educated about.

Set against beautiful landscapes and ever-changing nature, we're introduced to a few women who are brave enough to tell their stories. We follow them down moving rounds, never sure what the destination is, until the final moments where we discover the truth. I think the choice to tell these stories in this way was an incredible move, really shattering what we thought we knew about abortion and laws regarding it around the world.


The Train to Qinling

Such a beautiful tale of adventure and learning to trust. I think animated tales like this can be so sweet and simple, but have an even bigger message. 

When a traveller gets lost, the only thing there to help is a panda. I thought that this idea was so sweet and loving, really making me want to travel. There are so many films where this sort of instance would've ended badly, however it was lovely to see that this had a positive message and ending of friendship.

The animation style felt real yet still had a fantasy look about it which I liked, allowing us to dive into the world of the film and leave home for a short while.

Still from The Story Of All Of Us Women



Selfhood Stories: Explore the strength of individual human beings as they respond to difficulties and hardships.

Asphyxiate

A woman tries to gasp for air as she drowns in the memories of a tainted relationship. Wow, the editing and style of this film was perfect, really helping us get to grips with the story and what the woman was going through. Michaela Longden who stars in the film is nominated for best performance and you can really see why. She's delicate, beautiful and really takes us to a place that a lot of people have been to. Also written by her, we can see how important this kind of story is to her and that it's told properly and respectfully.

Directed by Nicole Pott, we're thrown around the relationship like the couple shown, understanding their ups and downs in an intimate way, really emphasised through the closeups and chosen camera angles. I love the use of colour and shapes, standing out even to the general film watcher as something more than just a simple film. You can see why it's nominated for what it is.


Coming Out For Christmas

Made by some of the creators of the festival, this film really gets us into the Christmas mood. I think LGBT+ centred films can feel odd or cheesy or just down right wrong, but this one felt real. The premise of the film is simple but clever, using one of the biggest days of the year as a way to tell your family your important news. I loved the slight twist of the news not being able to come out, keeping us on the edge of our seats through the film, wondering if the truth will ever be allowed to come out.

I liked how simple things were, allowing us as the viewer to position ourselves at the Christmas dinner table and be part of the family, whether we were the character wanting to come out or the ones sat ready to support the news. This really was a sweet watch.


For The Woman On The Floor

Looking into the world of trauma and how people cope with what they've been through, this film is a really interesting one. Using a mix of real footage and animation, we learn about the inner demons that someone is facing, and will always be facing unless they are able to get help.

I found the style of this film to be really beautiful and moving. It felt simple and sweet yet delve into the affect of trauma on people in a way that I haven't really seen done before. Nominated for best performance, Erin Lustria plays someone who could be anyone dealing with their issues. Unsure and confused, this short was written so well in looking at emotions and feelings and respecting them, not hyping them up for extra drama.

I just really appreciate this film and it's message. The use of metaphors but also realness. I think this one has done such a good job.


ill, actually

What an interesting documentary to see! This short film allows us to see into the lives of people who share their lives online, sometimes also including or hiding their illness. I've never seen anything like this, apart from ridiculous American teen films that show something like this in a way that doesn't respect the real people, so I'm really glad that we're able to finally see their stories from their point of view.

Directed by Zoe Hunter Gordon, I think this documentary is so incredibly put together, using a mix of intimate camera angles to really give us an up close look into these people's lives, along with narration, making it feel like we're having a friendly chat altogether.

I guess as a society, we assume the worst, but it's brilliant to see this short and know that people aren't allowing their illnesses to define them, rather they are taking control like they should be.


obscure origins

Surrounded by thick forest, Run lives within a group of isolated women as they grapple with the ancestral expectations placed on them. This short really invited me in with the filming choices and colours. Not just a typical film looking at tradition, we dive into a fantasy world, watching the women as they learn.

Written and directed by Molly Moody, we learn about life and death in a way that only few films have tackled. This story is something that we can all relate to in regards to present day, but something that also feels so foreign, that it can only be a story.

Looking at loss in a cinematic way, we can start to learn about traditions around the world, but also reflect on our own. This film really does stand out to me, feeling out, but also incredibly present.


Pink and Blue

Using animation, this short explores the life of a transgender man and his experiences. It really does make me upset, knowing that some people aren't accepted because of who they are, but to see stories like this reminds me that it will and can be ok. To have the courage to share a story so personal can be hard, to look over the most difficult time, but can also be healing, for not just the person involved but for anyone viewing who needs that slice of love also.

Simple yet important, I really am impressed by this short and how important the story is.


Scare

This comedy looks at the thing so many women go through, pregnancy tests and one night stands. I think that this short film idea is genius, really playing with something that a lot of people can relate to but in an electric, fun way. The extreme of it, the intenseness of it, I totally fell in love with the story.

Written and directed by Sarah Grant, this short really caught my attention and you can see why this film has been selected to be part of the festival. This topic is often a big taboo, but to add animation, the thoughts and feelings that everyone must go through, to me it really is perfect. To go through the thoughts it did, I really respected it for not just being a 2D piece, and go into detail on thoughts and topics that so much of the world go through.

Absolutely brilliant.


Stitch (2018)

This was such an incredible insight into the world of disability benefits and how you have to constantly be proving that you're disabled in able to keep your disability allowance. It's awful to think of all the people that are affected everyday because the people at the top don't believe them.

I loved the animation style for this short, with the mix of knitting and crochet to create this world of togetherness but also something that could easily come apart. Juxtaposed with the real footage, we're bought back to reality and reminded that this is a true story for a lot of people.

I think this animation really is powerful, and I think more should be done to make us aware of things like this happening, so that we can be there for people even if the government is not.


Stitch (2020)

Using the covid-19 lockdown as a backdrop, we see a woman's journey as she takes the opportunity to improve herself. I really liked this idea as it's something that anyone can relate to. We all went through stages of baking bread, learning to knit, wanting to do more exercise, and to show that through this monologue style piece that's simple but ends with a satisfying bang is brilliant. I love it!

Still from Scare


Journeys to Truth: The wonderful shorts depict the engaging personal journeys and revelations of various remarkable women.

A Disappearance

When a child goes missing, a former celebrity psychic uses it as an opportunity to claw back her fame. Such an interesting idea, written and directed by Laurence Brook and Laura Spini. I like how it delves into tough topics, things that we never want to admit are real, but sadly they are. I think to use that as a backdrop is tough, but so clever in it's approach and construction.

It felt like we were members of the audience, but with the camera angles, it felt like we had an access all areas pass that meant we could really see the truth behind everything. The colours, or lack of, really heightened the atmosphere, really making us feel scared and tense about the situation and how it might unfold.

Starring Sophie Thompson, who is nominated for best performance, we really do feel like we know her as an old celebrity maybe who we've lost contact with. She does an incredible job in holding our attention, but also making us question her motives and what the truth really is. I really did like this, as a lot of the TV shows I like look at subjects like this and have quite dark themes, and I can imagine seeing a TV series following this sort of event.


Beat It

Following 2 uni students on an early morning stroll, the film seems simple and sweet to begin with, hinting at possible family problems and issues, but then we're thrown into the deep end with them. I really liked how they used what happened as a catalyst to finally talk about what they needed to talk about. It's a shame that we feel the need to keep everything to ourselves and only feel we can talk when something bigger happens. 

Written by Laura Gordon, I think it's fantastic that such heavy topics are being looked at withs much care, but also so much realism, not softening the blow for the watcher. Adding in a few twists and turns, we learn how trauma can get to us in ways that we don't expect or even know about, but that we should do something about it, when and if we can. A sweet story, that will stick with me I think.

Fingers

Doing a final fitting for her wedding dress, we are introduced to Tamar who suddenly can't open up her hands. We are confused like her, but try to learn with her about the truth and what's going on. We're left spending the film batting around ideas and possibilities, hoping that it will all be ok.

Using a handheld filming style, my previous points are really emphasised, painting us next to Tamar, joining her on her day. I really loved the colours, making everything feel warm and homey, but at the same time quite stark and icy.

I liked how it looked at things that so many relationships go through, but also how bad things can be used as a positive to brighten it all. Written and directed by Hofit Sigavi, I really was pulled into this story, understanding why it has been nominated for best writing in the festival.


Hatsu

Such an amazing insight into someone else's world. This film really did surprise me with its detail and cinematography as we learnt about the lives of some sister's who had to look after themselves after their father is deported. It breaks my heart seeing films like this, knowing how real these stories are, and are still taking place in our world today.

Nominated for best cinematography, production design and costume design, this short is a work of art, allowing us to romanticise the life of these girls, but also know how harsh life is through the juxtaposition of the darkness and script. Written and Directed by Rita Iris Prieto Matzuki, this film feels like a pastel dream, even a period drama, but obviously uses an intensely sad story as its power.

I found the acting really strong, matching to the rest of the film. From prettiness to destruction, we go on a journey with the sister's, hoping for the best but knowing to expect the worst.


Sealskin

Set against a beautiful coastal landscape, this film shows the story of Tara and the decision that she has to make after finding a sealskin. This film looked like a selection of oil paintings, all slowly telling this story of hardship is such a beautiful way. Nominated for best cinematography and costume design, this period drama really comes to life through the way it looks, transporting us to the seaside town where its set.

Written and directed by Daisy Leigh-Phippard, this strong story lets us see history from a new perspective, putting us into the shoes of Tara and living her life for a while. It really is impressive, with quality you would expect from an episode of Game of Thrones, but truly appreciated on this level also.

I really liked this look into a mother and daughter relationship, showing us how we can relate to something, even set hundreds of years ago. Parent/child relationships are different with everyone, but lovely to see this one set in this way.


SH'HAB

Set against a beautiful landscape of blue skies and rocky shores, this short captured my attention in seeing a young girl wanting to own her life and not grow up waiting for a man. But then venturing further into the film and seeing that it's about more than just that, I grew to really like it.

Nominated for both best production design and cinematography, from my previous points you can really see why. This film, as well as being a fantastic story, it looked fantastic too. It felt soft and natural, drawing us into the place, feeling like we were also at home, yet not like the young girl. I found the acting in it to be really great, especially that of the young brother and sister who really took hold of the ropes in the film.

Written and directed by Amal Al-Muftah, this simple story looks at love and wanting more from life, as well as the dangers that come with it. 


Still from Hatsu


Special Screening: Shades of Blue

This film explores mental health and its effects within the black community. Recently, my social media pages have been buzzing with articles and awareness, making us aware that often black people are treated differently by medical professionals, even black people who are pregnant. It's so awful, but it needs to be spoken about, people need to come forward so that things can be done to change it and make sure that everyone, no matter the colour of their skin, is accepted, understood and looked after. To now this this in documentary form is brilliant, and hopefully this sort of film will continue the movement and bring more awareness to the matter.

Directed by Sophie Abramovici and Jamie Lemomu, this film really does well to explain mental illness, both what it is and how people deal with it. Instead of feeling like a typical sad documentary about that topic, it left me feeling motivated and inspired to do more for my mental health, and for the black people in my community who need that support to.  Whether that's continuing to learn and sign petitions, or really challenge the people I meet, films like this are always a great way to begin the push for the next thing.

With a mix of handheld and sat down footage, this short felt professional but also welcoming, like we were sitting down to chat with the people and learn from them as friends, rather than just be educated and then left to figure out what's next on our own.


Omg, I've finished the festival and watched every short film! It's been nice to discover so many new stories and talents, as well as revisit past ideas and build on them. It's been sad that the first year of this festival couldn't take place in person, but I've really enjoyed being able to just chill and take the festival at my own pace, even if that means binging 15 films and then not doing anything else for a few hours. I'm unsure of the winners, but I'll leave links to the festival and Rianne Pictures who created it if you want to learn more! https://riannepictures.com/womenx

So yes, that was the first ever Women X Film Festival! It's been fun, now it's time for bed!

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