HAPPY 4 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!

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anna, it's me, pick up!

ugh, I hate when this happens.

*what a shame. anna isn't available right now. She is probably busy taking photographs, editing films, and adding stuff to her little internet blog. Don't worry though, just leave your message after the beep*

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hey future anna, it's me, past anna. how's it going? I hope it's going good! I can't believe that 4 years ago today we started this. as a way to post things we wanted to remember and keep forever, and share more words with the world. it's been fun, so much fun! and we've gone through a lot...

new cars, interviews and opportunities, holidays and visits, making films, crazy scary days, music and shows, so so much!

with nearly 140 posts and nearly 10,000 views, it's weird to think that people do care about what is posted here. but at the same time, it's nice to have as a personal thing, to be able to see triumphs and failures, mostly with not completing my New Years resolutions. hahah! one day we'll do them all, but no promises.

this blog has led me to create more YouTube videos, start making IGTV videos, and being asked to do some cool things.

I thought it would be cool to look through my first ever post, and reanswer the bit about me section. 4 years can change you, or also make you realise you're still the exact same person and haven't changed since you got to highschool.

A bit about me:

1. I'm 18 and currently in my gap year. This gap year may last forever. I still don't know really.
   NOW: I'm 22, and still in my gap year lollll. when people ask me what I wanna do with my life, I say I'm on my gap year for the foreseeable future and will let them know when I know. there are thoughts of moving back to London, conquering the world and all sorts. Again, I'll keep you updated.
2. To be honest, I hate texting and much prefer speaking to someone in person, but I love telephone calls, so that is kinda what inspired me with the format of this blog.
   NOW: still relate to this. I love being in contact with my friends, but I sometimes feel like things get lost in translation. I've discovered voice notes, so I love using them!
3. It is my dream to go in a seaplane. And be a film maker, but the seaplane dream seems cooler.
   NOW: I still wanna go in a seaplane. whenever I see one, in real life or a film, it just pushes me to do it even more. I don't know why really, I just think it's cool that it can be a boat, but also fly? seems fake but ok. oh, and to be a film maker. yeah. I guess this blog has helped me learn more about the film industry over the last 4 years. I want to do more than just make films, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to do that either.
4. I'm a vegetarian because I don't really enjoy the texture of meat. Eat whatever you want, you support me and I will support you.
   NOW: same. 
5. I have 7 cactus. They all have names and are basically my children.
   NOW: lol I made a YouTube video recently talking about my plants. all those cacti are dead, soz. but I have 4 plants that are doing ok. I hope my plants know I do love them, even if they do feel neglected from time to time.
6. I am a fangirl. Katy Perry, Kacey Musgraves, Bastille, Melanie Martinez, Mumford & Sons, Girli, Game of Thrones, Doctor Who, and many, many more.
   NOW: still true! I'd say Katy Perry and Bastille are still my faves, but I still love those other things and a lot more.  crazy to think in the last 4 years, I've met Bastille! one day it'll be katy. but we'll just have to wait and see.
   7. There are lots more other things I could list but I will just give you those details for now. You will learn more about me if you want to through my posts and social media.
   NOW: true. a friend recently made me realise that I don't have an aesthetic. it made me sad to think I couldn't put my life into a pretty box, but then I realised that it's quite nice to be outside the box. I love colour, I love being chic, I love being messy, I love cottage core and I wanna wear that but I also wanna wear suits and have a sword. it's nice to finally know that it's ok to be who I wanna be, and not worry about instagram themes or what other people think. I don't care, so you shouldn't either.

So, that's where we're at. it's been a good 4 years, and also not great. hahah! but it's so lovely to have all these words and things to look through to remind myself of what I've done and achieved. here's to the next 4 years, I wonder what will happen!

stay safe future anna, you're gonna do great xoxo

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My Thoughts On 'Babyteeth"

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if you didn't know that a new film called babyteeth has come out, you might have thought I was a little weird after reading the title, haha! I thought I'd write down a few of my thoughts for the film as I really did love it. I won't be going into crazy detail, and it won't be as long as some of my reviews, but I wanted to chat about it a little bit, so here it is!

THE REST OF THIS POST WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR THE FILM

This was the first film I saw in the cinemas post UK lockdown. I had to wear a mask the whole time, which I didn't mind because obviously it keeps people safe, but it was fantastic as it was able to soak up my tears! I cannot tell you how I welled up at the end and just exploded with sadness.

The film follows a young girl who is seriously ill and how she falls for a small-time drug dealer. Her parents disapprove, but she soon finds a new lust for life with this romance. I love the idea of this, the idea that we can do things that are parents aren't happy with, but to know their daughter's happiness is a big deal due to her life possibly coming to an end, it threw a spanner into the expected works. One of my ultimate favourite things though was that it was about a girl who had cancer, but it wasn't about cancer. It really annoys me when there's a new LGBT film or something about a topic we don't really see and the whole film focuses around that one point, as if to suggest the only thing in a gay persons life is the fact that they're gay. I'm so glad that this wasn't about cancer, like it was, but it wasn't. 

so after some research, I found out that the film was based on a play of the same name that came out a few years ago, and the writer also wrote the script for the film. They both seem to be very similar from research, where the scene from the end is the scene that also starts it, and other key plot points. I like that it's so similar and we can appreciate the original story but obviously spread to a wider audience around the world. I also appreciate that it was written and first shown in Australia, and it was filmed in Australia. I love when things stay home grown and we can see how the play was meant to be. I really wanna see it on stage now!

I really loved the actors in this. they all worked together so perfectly. Eliza Scanlen, omg can we just take a moment for you. and the wigs you wore (I want them). ooooh yes. I think Eliza did an incredible job portraying Milla. She was sweet and sensitive, yet raring to grow up and try the things she knew would never be able to happen. I really loved her in this role and want to watch it again because of her. One of my favourite things in the film was the simple moments when she looked at the camera. It reminded me of Fleabag and did make it feel like a perforce or play, which is obviously what it was based on. it made us feel one with Milla, like we were with her along this journey, but also like we were so disconnected from what was truly happening with her. Opposite her, we see Toby Wallace as Moses. I loved him and hated him. I think he was so good at playing this ride or die character who we were scared and worried about, but also in love with because Milla was.

and to finish this kinda review, let's talk about the tears. so at the end when Milla asks Moses to smother and then he doesn't but then she dies in her sleep and omg I was in TEARS! I thought we were at the end but no, we see a previous scene when Milla is chatting with her dad. They understand that Milla will and wants to die soon, and he'll have to promise to care for Moses. it had me crying so much. I was weeping into my mask, so luckily it was there to catch my tears. To see this girl go on this journey for a short time was really lovely, but then to realise that all good things must come to an end and we were about to see that, well it truly shattered my heart. to tell your dad that you're ready to die, and then to have to understand that as a father, I just have no clue how in real life people would have the strength to do that. I loved the moments through the film where Milla acted like a little kid around her parents, wanting cuddles and things. I'm exactly the same as it just makes you feel quite loved, and to see Milla go through the film as a young girl and pretend to be a cool party person, to someone who is so sure of what she wants, it really was incredible growth. It makes me well up just thinking about it.

I really loved this film. I want everyone to watch it, to know the story and love it as much as I do because it really deserves it.

so those were some of my thoughts on BABYTEETH! I hope I can see the play one day, but until then, I'll keep crying at the film and how good Eliza and Toby and the rest of the cast were because omg, I adore it.

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